WHY ME?

I painted everything white 

Everyday I struggle to fight

This inner voice in my head

Tells me to live or die instead

This empty walls of darkness

Trigger the feelings of loneliness

Encapsulated in this room

I thought of my own tomb

I found peace for a while 

Brought my soul to million miles

Still I go back to reality of life

Where in my hand holds a knife

No one will notice this feelings

For hours I stare to the ceiling

I pray my sins to our Thee

And this demon inside me

I won't ask for your empathy 

Not even your time to listen

I'll let this persona to eat me

Because one day I'll be forgotten

I'm so done wearing this facade

I can't make you laugh anymore

I want to cry out that I am sad

But I asked my self, what for?