One Great Memory

I seldom took a picture of you that I can post in my social media accounts. Not because I don’t love you but it’s just not me.

Every memory we had is just in my mind and heart.
I often say that you know nothing aside from being a cute one, which is true. But I know with in my heart that the way you love is a talent that no one knows except me.

Million times I thought of replacing you but I know that you are one of a kind. I can never find such creature like you. Everybody loves you and enjoy all your silly actions. They seize the moment of you being sweet to them.

You are a silent one. I almost don’t feel that you are just beside me when I’m eating. You are charming in your little ways and for that I can’t resist to give you the touch of care.

I know I over reacted when you left me before because I thought I wouldn’t see you again. It kills me to think that way.
Now, it hurts to know that I lost you, I lost you big time and you are not coming back to me anymore. It’s a goodbye and not see you again.

I can still recall in my mind the first time you came in my life. You were still young and I can still carry you with my bare hands. I can still comb your hair with my fingers. How you seems to be shy every time I look at you. I was amazed on how your hair naturally flaunt in front of your face. It’s perfect and I can’t deny that you look good and I’m proud of it.

I wonder if you are really a dude coz you know what. You pee like a real lady.

You were inside that big brown box and I know for sure that I will take care of you. That’s for sure. That’s a promise. A promise I never did because I lost you.

You are so lazy that I often see you lying on the floor. Your voice serves as my alarm clock every morning. It brings me back to reality from either a good or bad dream. I’m so amazed on how you change your voice depending on what you want to say.
I took care of you even if I don’t know how long you will stay with me.

Short memories yet I’ll remember it for a lifetime.

I can still remember the moment I heard them screaming because you got into an accident. Pain is all over their faces. They are scared. They are hurt. I don’t want to believe not until I see it with my own eyes. I just need a proof.

As I walk towards you everything went into slow motion. I can hear my heart beats faster than it always does. It took me a while to realize that you are gone for good.

That time when I saw you lying having the worst moment of your life, I want to carry you in my arms again, one more time. I want to rush you in the hospital with the hope that they can bring you back in life.

But my hopes were gone when I saw blood flowing from your head. I burst out in tears and reality hits me back that it’s goodbye for us.
I know I can’t fight for you anymore.
I can’t save you anymore.
I can’t be with you for another day of my life.

I cried for God knows how many hours but I know it won’t bring you back.

If only every tear in my eyes gives you a chance to live again I won’t hesitate to shed another one for you.
I loved and love you they way I love a real person.
Maybe for them you are just a dog but we both know that for me you are more than that.
I want to believe that you left for a reason. Maybe I don’t understand the reason but I will try.

One thing is for sure that reason is worth it of your absence in my life forever.
There is no way I could possibly say these words to you but I hope that the wind blows my heartfelt message from where you are now.

If one day I feel something strange, something cold or warm I know it’s you.
It’s you loving me wherever you are.
Goodbye men. Goodbye IVORS

The last picture of you Ivory